March 28, 2008


I really enjoyed reading this article because I can identify with the writer's eye-opening experience. I try my best to use my imagination, like this writer, to experience things I read in the Bible. Never once have I thought about myself truly in the disciples' shoes in Gethsemane that somber night.

Now, sure - I've judged them for their inability to simply stay awake when Christ asked them to pray for him. I say "simply" by assuming that fighting exhaustion is an easy task. I pity their lack of resolve to stay awake. I've told myself and puffed up my ego by imagining that I would have stayed awake and prayed for the One whom we call Messiah. If the Son asked it of me, of course I would obey.

Craziness really; I have a hard time keeping my eyes open at work after a sleepless night sometimes.

Now I'm forced to imagine times when I've experienced heavy fatigue. I can think of a time after a day-long concert in the summer sun. I also recall staying awake for about 36 hours straight when prepping for a vacation. It's like those times when you are so tired that the bad attitude sets in and your ability to fight emotion is wrecked.

That's how, that state of mind, I should truly represent myself when trying to imagine being in the garden with Jesus that night. And, I have to ask some hard questions here.... how likely am I, in this mind frame, to obey and pray without ceasing for Him who was in extreme turmoil? Would I react with obedience and faithfulness? Would I be able to stay awake? Would I even fight to stay awake or would I shrug off this man's plea for me to enter into suffering with Him?

I can't say that I would be willing to battle fatigue in those moments. Knowing me, I would react like Peter and slice someone's ear off.

God help us that we let our flesh determine our faith and obedience.

Hope it gets you thinking as well....


No comments: